Post-op: Day 12

So I’ve been feeling a little better lately. I say just a little because I’ve been noticing small things that I can do now that I couldn’t do my first week after post-op, but nothing MAJOR like walking on my own or anything. Standing up by myself and using crutches to walk isn’t torturous anymore and I feel like I have a little more power to lift my operated knee independently. I did start having random muscle spasms in my calf recently, mostly after doing the rehab exercises that my physical therapist assigned to me. I called my doctor about it and he said that it’s common to have muscle spasms in the calf and hamstring after ACL surgery and that it should be fine as long as there isn’t increased swelling, redness, or pain. After surgery my front shin was super swollen and painful and that has definitely gone down. I’ll feel a lot better when I can start to put some actual weight on my operated knee, but I’m definitely not trying to rush anything because there is no way in hell that I ever want to have another ACL surgery.

I was approved for “25% weight bearing” this week which is essentially a toe touch to the floor. I’ve found that I can do this so I suppose that’s some proof of things getting better. The rehab exercises are a bit puzzling because I’m not so sure how much range of motion I’m gaining back. Granted I only started last Friday but I don’t feel like I’ve made much progress. Maybe I’m just a little too anxious to get back to at least walking normally again.

This vacation has helped me feel loads better. I haven’t been doing anything too out of the ordinary, but it’s a hell of a lot better driving around than just staying in my room all the damn time. One thing I’ve been doing recently is listening to The Tobolowsky Files podcast and I’ve been greatly enjoying that. I’m a fan of podcasts but I find it difficult to get into new ones just due to the fact that there are so many out there. The Tobolowsky Files is a show hosted by David Chen (of the /Filmcast fame) and character actor Stephen Tobolowsky (the definition of a “that guy” actor. Look at his images on Google and it’s almost guaranteed that you’ll remember him as “that guy” from such and such). The Tobolowsky Files hits the right bittersweet notes about life that are simultaneously entertaining, hilarious, heartbreaking, and insightful. I might put up a few quotes over the next couple of weeks from the podcast because Stephen Tobolowsky is absolutely gold.

Gahhhhhh, so ready for this knee to heal up. I know it’s going to take some time so until then I’m just going to diligently do my rehab exercises and hope everything goes well. Until next time folks, good night!

I realize now that the moment of silence is not supposed to make you feel better about a loss. It is supposed to make you feel part of it. Silence is the only thing we can share with the dead. It is a symbolic gesture of solidarity that affirms that we know that we are on the same journey.